From what they've shown me, to trust them would be un-just

Those people are sinister, cries-out my worried heart

Honey, if they treat you badly, I'll tear them apart

With a sweet smile and a hug, you said "I'll be right back"

Hours have passed since then, apprehension climbs my back

I Hear a car approach...But no headlights come up the lane

I try to stay busy, not let who you're with drive my brain

I force myself to stop pacing, sit down and write for awhile

My head can't hold a thought, feels like I've walked for miles

Surely you would call me, if you changed your mind and stayed

Wouldn't leave me here to worry, all night and half the next day

You took your phone with you, so I know you'd call if you could

Hell, I don't even know where you went and that's surely no good

You said the bastard was a pervert, with cameras in every room

I'm gonna go out of my mind, if I don't hear from you real soon

I didn't want to pry, and I was trying to give you some space

The last thing that I want to do is make you sick of my face

I guess it's just me being selfish, it's been so sweet having you here

But I doubt it's much fun for you, sweety, not much "adventure" here

And with what you're facing, I wouldn't blame you if you should run

Doing 18 months over seven years, can really put you under the gun

But god how I hate to see you go, life won't "shine" without you, hon

I've loved the chance to get closer to you, spend some time one on one

You've had a great effect on things, long time since I've written so much

I'll try to hold on to the good things you brought, recall your sweet touch

If you decide to stay, go through the crap the bastards lay down

I'll always be right here for you, win or lose I'll always be around

And if you must go, I'll lay in bed for days and I won't do a thing but cry

They'll find me there dead of a broken heart, cold and stiff, a tear in my eye

And clutched to my heart, some beads, a turkey baster, and creamy peanut butter

They'll say "he might-a made it, if she was here, but her heart belonged to another...

But no matter what you decide, is the right thing for you to do

I'll always be right there in your heart...in "limbo"...waiting for you...

And honey, you'll for all eternity be, my best friend and my sweetest dream...

And please, don't ever forget I love you, and you'll always be welcome in my home and in my heart...

                           written to Staci by:  Ed Lane/songman52 Sept. 2005 

ANOTHER LONG, MISERABLE NIGHT

Another long miserable night, it's cold and I'm so all alone

Feeling so far from her heart, and yet, I can't escape my own

Damn fool  who keeps falling into the hole my life has become

Struggling to save my heart, as my troubled mind goes numb

Time goes by so slowly, when she leaves, and till she returns

Broken heart just lies bleeding, while the fire in my gut burns

He's there, so I can't go to her, tho I want to with all  my heart

God!  I wish it was different, I can feel myself falling apart

My life seems like someone elses, it's no place I care to be

Take my poor soul home, lord, don't leave me here with me...

Ed Lane/songman52     Jan. 2000